why?

I've been here for five years. Five years full of learnings, experiences, adventures, new faces,  happiness, hope and love.

Now, I was called to be a leader. But why is it that I'm feeling like everything is not all about service anymore nor passion to serve? All I feel is that I just need to do my obligation and responsibility. I just need to do that and this. I don't know.  It feels like I am working. Not serving.

Sad to say, but this is how i feel. Every single morning i need to do this and that.
Don't get me wrong. I know I said YES and i know that I need to do this.
But way back, whenever I do this, even if I am very tired, had a bad day pag ito ang pinag usapan, na eenergize ako, naeexcite ako. Feel ko hindi ako napapagod. Pero bakit ngayon?


#ineedananswer

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Thank you

" tsaka alam mo ba, seryoso to ah, whenever namomroblema ka sa subjects mo, nalulungkot ako...for example...yung nag removals ka kay Sir Dota dati...kaya nga kahit di ko gamay yung C, sinabak ko...ayoko kasing makita kang malungkot :)"

 

Thanks for doing everything for me. I hope someday I can return back all the things you sacrifice and give to me :)

 

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i love you

I MISS YOU SO MUCH.

EVEN IF YOU ARE MILES MILES AWAY FROM ME

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY MIND AND IN MY HEART

I WILL BE STRONG FOR YOU

FOR YOU TOO CHOOSE TO BE STRONG.

IT WILL BE 300 DAYS MORE TO GO

FOR US TO SEE YOU

AND WHILE WAITING FOR YOU

I PROMISE TO BE GOOD AND STRONG

I PROMISE TO WORK HARD

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

AND I miss you badly :(

Loneliness

Bakit ganun?
Nahihirapan ako sa sitwasyon ko.
Akala ko pa naman thru ups and downs
Still you think of yourself only
Why do you have to make things so complicated?
I'm tired of this
I know you need my time.
But as for my situation now.
I don't have time for everything.
I'll have to let go of things na siguro. Best solution I think. Kasi baka sa kakahawak ko sa mga bagay, dumating na lang ang panahon na mawala ang lahat. :( Napapagod na rin ako masaktan, umiyak..


Wala na ba akong karapatang umalis with friends? Manood ng tv? magkacrush? kumausap ng ibang tao? O kaya naman tumulong sa magulang ko ng gawaing bahay? I feel like I can't breathe without permission. I feel like I am not happy anymore.


I'm tired. Very tired.

#randomfeeling #feelinglonely

I want to say this

Today, sobrang grabe ang ulan. Mula Sunday pa ito ng gabi.

Well, what I want to share is, I saw the picture of Senator Gordon. Well, stated there was "Kahit hindi niyo ko binoto, tumutulong pa rin ako". And yeah. It is very true. Unlike other politicians.

And then I tweeted what my minds want to say
"Well I salute Sir Dick Gordon for helping people kahit hindi siya nanalo. Nasan na ung mga binoto ng mga tao? Sana naman kumilos kayo. Panindigan niyo sana ung mga pangako niyo. Ngayon kayo kailangan ng taong bayan. #justmyopinion #observation"

and someone tweeted "you cant expect all public officials to go swimming around flooded areas like gordon does to show their concern... #justsaying"

Syempre obvious na para saken ung tweet. Well, my point is. Hindi ko talaga dapat sila iexpect. Kasi dapat ginagawa na nila yun. Ano pang silbi nila. Sinabi ko ba na gayahin nila si Gordon at magSWIMMING kayo. At hindi nagsswimming si Gordon. HAHAHAHA. Well my point is tumulong sila. Lalo na ung may mga kapangyarihan. Parang ganto lang yan, ung mayor namen. Nasa labas hanggang ngayon, tinutulungan ang mga taong lubog sa baha at walang makain. Wala silang pake kung buong araw na silang basa kasi SERBISYO nila un. SERVICE, my friend. They are here to do SERVICE. SERVICE for the people, nation and our country.

If you misinterpret my tweet, well I am sorry.  I just want to say what I want to say specially now that we are facing catastrophe in our country. We need servant leaders. Leaders who are willing to serve others. Who are willing to serve others first than their selves.

Ikaw ba Servant Leader ka ba? O leader? O leader-leaderan? :)


Keep safe everyone <3