For a Lifetime

I think a T R U E friend is really hard to find. 

It takes time and experience to know if you are with someone who is real to you. 

Who is not only there when you are in your up-s moments but also willing to accept you in your darkest moments.

Who will be there for you, listen to you, make hampas to you, make you laugh, make you cry.

It is not a perfect relationship as the others but i guess it will always be the problems-make-them-stronger thingy.

Early this evening my friend Marela asked me if I can make her a write up for her yearbook. An eighty-word describing her. And that is the reason why I am writing this.

It has been 11 years of friendship from our fourth grade up until now. We have been in our ups and downs. We knew each other from our sad face, tampo face, problem face and i-have-something-to-tell-you face. It's funny how we can recognize each other if we are hungry, want to do something else, or nervous. 

I don't know how to start your write up but i am happy that you want me to write it even if it gives me sakit-sa-ulo.

While doing this, i am listening to our graduation song and memories just went in my mind. 

We used to wish that we do things together. Graduate together, Survive Parsci. And yes we did. We did survived high school. We survived our almost a year of not making pansinan. We survived our civil war. HAHAHAHA. I remember that i got jealous because you have an endearment in one of our friends. hahahaha. How childish. And when we entered college, we met new friends, new bff but i guess our friendhip our tight-relationship can never be replaced by anyone (for me ah, i don't know for you) . We may not see each other for a long time but it never and will never diminish our love for each other. And as we reach the new milestone in our lives, i just want to congratulate because you have made it.

Excited for more years together. 

Fulfilling

One more Sem to go. #RoadTo2015  #onemoresem

ABANKKBSNPLK

A lot of things happen to me for the past two months:

First:
    Nag overnight kami sa bahay ng kaklase ko. It was good. Everyone was unwinding. Nagrerelax. Umiinom, nagsasaya at nagkukuwentuhan. Marami akong nalaman, natutunan sa time na iyon. Sad to say na marami pala akong hindi kilala na tao. Na iba pala ung ugali talaga. Hindi ko sinasabi na nagpapanggap siya or what pero I just don't EXPECT (yes, expect) na ganun ang pagkatao nya.

Second:
    Bumagsak ako sa isang kong subject. 80 % passing and my grade was only 71% nag taas si maam, nagbigay ng plus points. So naging 74.81 % i was like, sobrang layo ko pa sa passing. Maya maya, nag announce si maam na 75% and up are all passed na. So i was like OHMYG! point chuchu na lang and no need for me to take removals and i was like praying really hard while studying kasi ayoko na mag removals kasi ung chance or probability e by chance. So parang iniisip ko na sana pumayag na si ma'am kasi kapag rinound-off naman 75 na rin. So after my classmate told me "PASADO ka na. 74.5 and up daw passed na". Masasabi ko na isa ung sa mga miracles ng buhay ko. Biruin mo ung point 5 ung nagligtas sa ken. Sobrang grateful kahit sabihin mo na hindi ako sabit (sabi nila) para saken sobrang sabit ako kasi umabot pa ko sa cut off na pasado. Sobrang galing kasi e. I shared it to my friends saying how happy am I and blessed :)

Third:
     I have a friend, a very close friend of mine na nagbago. Iyong pagkakakilala ko sakanya e sobrang bait niya. Sobrang bait parin naman nya ngayon pero hindi ko na makita ung taong DATING siya. Kasi kapag nangangamusta ako, nangangamusta ako purely nun, ang tendency magkukuwento siya and all. And when it was my turn to tell a story parang ishshift nya ung usapan and siya na ulit ang magkukuwento. Kapag may problema siya nakikinig ako, sobrang andyan ako para suportahan at makinig sa mga kwento nya na kahit matagal na niyang problema un or what, pero tulad kahapon gusto ko ikwento ung 'miracle' na nangyari saken, pero ni-hindi man lang niya ako kinamusta o tinanong or what. Kapag siya naman ang mag chachat saken, lagi na lang siya ung may kwento.
I mean it is okay for me to listen all the time. To hear all your problems, pero kaibigan ko siya. Sa kanya lang din ako nagkwekwento ng mga bagay bagay sa mundo pero iyong mga panahong ito, ni hindi man lang niya ako kausapin o kamustahin. Sobrang naffrustrate ako. Sobrang nalulungkot ako. Nagbago siya. Marami rin akong narinig na mga negative feedbacks sa mga iba't ibang tao at nalulungkot ako kasi ayoko na tuluyang maging ganoon siya.

Fourth:
      I have a lot of friends. Not just friends, but someone who I think and believe treat me as their own kapatid na. They trust me. Kinukwento nila saken lahat. From family to friends to study to love life to their own identity. I'm just happy that they are all trusting me. Nakakatuwa kasi. May isang kaibigan ako tinanong ako "Di ka ba napapagod samen, saken, sa kakakwento ko? Kasi alam ko may sarili ka ring problema. O kaya naiinis sa ken?" And I thought na oo nga no, ang dameng tao na nagkukuwento saken sa mga buhay nila pero never ako nainis sa dame nila. And then I thank God for allowing me to be their someone who can count on. Diba masaya sa pakiramdam na iyong mga kaibigan mo e sobrang pinagkakatiwalaan ka? :)

Fifth:
     I want to talk to someone din :( Iyong ako naman iyong magkukuwento. Iyong papakinggan lang din nila ako tulad ng ginagawa ko. Kasi gusto ko rin maglabas ng mga problema ko pero parang every time someone will ask me if I'm okay, nahihiya ako magkwento kasi alam ko na marami rin silang problema sa buhay nila na ayoko na makadagdag pa. Kaya nga siguro ako nagbblog. Kasi dito kahit ang labo labo ng kwento ko, wala kong pakialam kasi para saken gusto ko lang na may labasan. Kahit di nagrereply ung blog hahahaha

Sixth:
   May gusto akong i-close. As in close na close na close pero parang lagi na lang ako iyong nagfifirst move na magtetext o magchachat kaya I feel like na he doesn't want to talk to me. Madalas pa ngang seenzoned ako. Kaya wag na lang diba? HAHAHAHAHA.


Ayan tapos na ang kwento ko. May masaya, may malungkot pero at the end of the day.....

matutulog na ko =))

di ka nga sennzoned pero ignored naman

sadlife

tulay

Nakaakbang na ko sa tulay pero hanggang ngayon wala pa rin ako sa kalagitnaan ng tulay dahil natatakot ako sa pwedeng mangyari pag naroon na ko. Maaaring masira at mahulog ako o mahilo ako dahil sa paggewang nito.

HAPPY HEART'S DAY <3

to dream the impossible dream

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Gumising ako ng 3:30 para samahan ang mommy ko na ihatid si Menzo sa kanto. Hirap kasi mag tricycle ng ganoong oras. So pagkahatid. Nahiga ako sa sofa namen at doon na nakatulog. And dito na nagsimula ang aking panaginip...

Nag outing daw kami. So ung iba nag iihaw. 'yong iba naglalaro. 'yong iba nanonood ng TV (basketball kasi palabas), 'yong iba nagkwekwentuhan dun sa living room. At doon ako nakapwesto.
Sa sahig nga ako nakaupo noon kasama ang isa ko pang kaibigan at siya.
So di ko na maalala kong ano ung pinagkwekwentuhan pero for sure tahimik lang ako. So noong kakain na, tinawag na kami. So ayon,
sabi niya
asdfghjkl: "Friend!"
seconds of silence...
asdfghjkl: "Oooops. Unfriend na pala"
M: "Grabe, kaya pala di mo ko pinapansin kasi di na tayo friend"

at doon nagkaaminan. the rest is mine to keep <3 HAHAHAHAHA.
blinog ko na agad kasi baka makalimutan ko na :)

sampip

Is there something wrong?
With the way I speak

You don't even see me
When I pass you on the street
I'll close my eyes and let it be
Because I just can see
Why you love to hate me

something's bothering me

Dear ??,

          I don't know why you act like that. Why you treated me so cold as if I don't exist. Why suddenly you fade your smile whenever you look at me. I can't even think of reasons why you act like that towards me. Others say that "MAYBE, you did something, akala mo lang wala". But I can't even think of anything.
         
           Just so you know, you are hurting me unintentionally. You didn't smile back at me, when I smiled at you. You didn't bother to ask me if I want some. You didn't bother to talk to me when we had the chance.

You've given me so much pain (NAKS!) I mean, as a person and a very good citizen of the Philippines. I think and believe I don't deserve that treatment at all. Huhuhu.


 But I think I am in good faith (SCL 9 topic). Even if I hurt you and It was never my intention to hurt you, I am in good faith. HAHAHAHA.

I hope and pray that we can friends soon :)

Something's bothering me

May magkakaibigan.
Si B1, B2, at B3.
May mga chocolates sila.
Habang kumakain sila, dumaan si G1, G2, at B4.
Inalok ni B2 si G1 at B4.
Pero hindi niya inalok si G2.
Ano kaya mararamdaman mo?