Dear dad

I miss you.

Sorry for doing that to you.

You should be in the house

Drinking coffee every morning

Watching NBA and UAAP games with me

Promise to do this all for the glory of Him

and for you :)

I love you dad and miss you so much 

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:)

Random pictures with the people I love the most :)

There you were

When I thought I was worthless

When I thought I was useless

When I thought I was alone 

There you were trying to prove me wrong

The time I cried a lot

The time that world seems to hate me

The time that world seems to give me problems

There you were listening to me

Loving me

Giving your all

Sacrificing just to make sure I am happy and safe.

This was all before

But I guess 

Every beginning has its own ending

Ending with a new beginning again

I pray that we will be okay sooner

The hurt we feel right now will be gone

For I know that everything happen for a reason

Nothing is Impossible

Through You I can do anything
I can do all things
'Cause it's You who gives me strength
Nothing is impossible
Through You blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken
I am living by faith
Nothing is impossible
I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that You're here with me
And I know that You can do anything
I believe, I believe
I believe, I believe in you

Blessed

I was tap to be the camp head this coming sembreak. And I was very honor to do that. Pero that time, problems never leave my life. Low grades, Love life, etc. I really wanna do that. Since summer palang, nagpplan nako kung pano ung camp ko if ever I will be given a chance to do so.

Pero hindi ko alam kung pano ko maglelead ng camp. Kaya in short, napagdesisyunan ko na wag ng tanggapin. Ayoko mang gawin yun pero ung takot, ung kaba, ung problema.

Ngayon, may napanood ako na video. it is about our duty to God. God has given us duty. We should be obedient. Loyal. Faithful to Him. And now I feel na hindi ako naging faithful sa kanya.

And then, the song "Nothing is impossible" was played. And I was like crying now because all the answers to my previous rants about my life was answered. Maybe it's too late now. too late to get that position again. too late to lead youths towards God's community. But still blessed that finally, the questions I've been asking Him was finally answered.

A lot of problems will hit our lives. But just be obedient, loyal and faithful to Him. Then everything follows.

"Be not afraid. I have made you. I have called you. You are mine. You are precious to me and I love you. "

Siguro nga huli na. Huli na kasi may bago ng napili, malungkot ako pero siguro may plano ang Diyos. Better than my plans. :)

why?

I've been here for five years. Five years full of learnings, experiences, adventures, new faces,  happiness, hope and love.

Now, I was called to be a leader. But why is it that I'm feeling like everything is not all about service anymore nor passion to serve? All I feel is that I just need to do my obligation and responsibility. I just need to do that and this. I don't know.  It feels like I am working. Not serving.

Sad to say, but this is how i feel. Every single morning i need to do this and that.
Don't get me wrong. I know I said YES and i know that I need to do this.
But way back, whenever I do this, even if I am very tired, had a bad day pag ito ang pinag usapan, na eenergize ako, naeexcite ako. Feel ko hindi ako napapagod. Pero bakit ngayon?


#ineedananswer

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Thank you

" tsaka alam mo ba, seryoso to ah, whenever namomroblema ka sa subjects mo, nalulungkot ako...for example...yung nag removals ka kay Sir Dota dati...kaya nga kahit di ko gamay yung C, sinabak ko...ayoko kasing makita kang malungkot :)"

 

Thanks for doing everything for me. I hope someday I can return back all the things you sacrifice and give to me :)

 

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